"Books on the bookshelves
And stacked on the floor
Books kept in baskets
And propped by the door
Books in neat piles
And in disarray
Books tucked in closets
And books on display
Books filling crannies
And books packed in nooks
Books massed in windows
And mounded in crooks
Libraries beckon
And bookstores invite
But book-filled rooms welcome
Us back home at night!"
- L.R. Knost (via wordpainting)

"I can’t."

"You can’t what."

"Defend myself."

There. Right there. The moment of realizing her mistake.

It was too painful to see her in front of me, struggling to find a reason why. The truth was obvious, and it hit me square in the chest that she wanted to end things with me.

Our “thing” was so beautiful, and she wanted to end it. She wanted to destroy the beauty and end it.

And then she told me why.

"I’m not used to the way you’re treating me. In a relationship I was usually the one carrying it. I was the one taking care of it. Making sure it wouldn’t break. You.. you’re too good. I’m afraid that in whatever bubble we are in, I might be the one to pop it. I might be the one to do wrong. I might be the one to hurt you."

Shallow. It was too shallow. She said it with so much certainty, carefully picking out which words to use. She said it with such pace as if she was convincing herself to believe that it was true.

She didn’t notice how it was a bullet to my heart. I swallowed the pain, but even it was all too much for my stomach.

Why can’t she just let me love her the way I want to? Why can’t she just accept the fact that one way or another, no matter what happens, I’m still going to love her with all that I have, all that I am, and all that I will be? Just.. why?

Guess I’ll never know.

I realized why I haven’t been writing anymore. I haven’t been reading.
Because I write as much as I read. Reading gives me more inspiration to write, more than the people or the things in my life. Music gives me inspiration, too. But it’s different when I read. When I start to absorb and gobble up the words, it generates into something entirely new and different. I get a new idea. A new picture. A new concept. Either it’s from wanting another ending or wanting a different scenario for this. It gives me satisfaction to get it off my mind, so I write a whole other thing that branches from that. The more I read, the more I write. I guess it goes hand-in-hand with me. That’s why.

It’s sad. College never gives me time to read anymore. My unread books are piling up slowly and surely. ūüėĒ

posted 4 days ago with 7 notes
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sunsets. 

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Anonymous asked: I cheated on my guy. Now i get the feeling he's getting even. Should i even have the right to feel this way or just shut up and blame myself since i started this anyways?

Come off anon and I’ll tell you what to do and how to feel and everything that comes in between the two. We’ll talk for reals. Okay? Okay.

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posted 2 weeks ago via song-masher with 12,022 notes
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16 advices for Senior students (esp. those who will be medical students next year)

  1. It’s tiring. College is tiring. Everybody gets tired. (you just have to get used to it)
  2. Value sleep. (get as much sleep today because its existence will fade during college)
  3. It’s not about the score, it’s about learning and understanding the lesson. (because in bar exams you’ll have to remember everything and if you can’t you’re dead)
  4. You are mortal. Survival is the target, not perfection. 
  5. Study hard, pray harder.
  6. Well okay don’t just study hard, study smart. (your profs will make you study chapters and chapters and their tests will only cover more or less 8% of what you have studied so study what’s obvious and discussed)
  7. Don’t let your frustrations swallow you.¬†
  8. Rest if you must, but never give up. 
  9. It’s normal to fail. (you’ll get that a lot on your higher years)
  10. Don’t mope over spilled milk. What’s done is done. There’s nothing you can do about it. Accept, move on, and strive to do better in the next challenge.
  11. You may want to die. (if you have a suicidal state of mind)
  12. but never say die. Be optimistic. Always look at the bright side of things. (I’m serious, being negative will pull you down and then just drown you)
  13. Take care of your health. (you wouldn’t want to be as sickly as me)
  14. Endure. (you have such a long journey ahead, don’t stop yet)
  15. It’s okay to cry. Infact, cry as much as you want. Let it out. (but really sometimes you just can’t cry hard enough)
  16. God always hears you out. He is always there. He never forsakes you. Trust in His will. JUST. HAVE. FAITH.

But really college is not so bad. It has its perks. :>

posted 3 weeks ago with 9 notes
#personal   #college   #day   #advice   #lists   #seniors  

words, numbers
      exams, reviews
put your knowledge
      all to good use

read, study
      study and study
this will become
       your newest hobby

fail or pass
      pass or fail
there is no in-between
      only one will prevail

this is your cycle
       everyday
you’ll thank God it’s
       a Sunday

sleepless nights

flickering eyes

welcome to

               my college life.

posted 1 month ago with 5 notes
#personal   #thoughts   #writings   #college   #poem   #poetry   #lit  

"When I first saw you
I fell in love
And you smiled
Because you knew”

And felt the same.

Kakaloka wala akong ibang magawa eh kasi na LSS ayun para mawala sa utak hahahaha eto girl makinig ka ng mabuti hahahahahahaha kaya ko. I miss you, btw. 

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